Love You More Than I Can

Sheng Youting’s act was a little bit ridiculous. Yu Yi wanted to laugh but her timidity stopped her. She managed to pull her mouth corner up though it was awkward, “Shenxing, nice to meet you.”

Bang! Heavily put down against the table was Sheng Youting’s tableware. He was more than furious. If it were not for the face Yu Yi was wearing now, he would slap her heavily without doubt! “Good-for-nothing! Lan would never greet people like this. Be natural and poised! Don’t act like we own you money!”

Yu Yi shrank her shoulder by instinct on hearing the words. She was so afraid and wanted to cry but couldn’t. Then there came Sheng Youting’s order, “Fuck off!” She immediately followed the order and ran upstairs!

Jing Shenxing took a tumble! He thought for a while before looking at Sheng Youting, “Youting, let’s go out and take a look. Don’t stay in Jincheng anymore. I remember you’ve promised Lan to take her out to see the world.”

Jing Shenxing actually thought Sheng Youting was sick. However, he couldn’t tell him frankly. What he could do was to find another way to distract him.

Sheng Youting leaned back and rubbed his temples, “I think I can find Lan and get her back.”

Jing Shenxing pulled a chair beside the table out and sat down, “Youting, Yu Yi is Yu Yi. She can’t be Yu Lan even though they are sisters. Their personalities are not the same. How could it possible for you turn Yu Yi into Yu Lan?”

Sheng Youting was determined, “I can! I’ve devised a series of training lessons for her. Yu Yi has to master them! As long as she tries hard, she could be Lan eventually.”

Jing Shenxing’s blood froze. The Sheng Youting before his eyes was so terrifying. He was probably gone mad, “Youting! You need to see a psychologist!”

“I’m not sick. I’m just...missing her.”

Just miss her. He said in a gentle voice, which could hardly be heard. If there were an amplifier, you might hear a trembled voice.

Jing Shenxing could tell his grief and broken heart from the feeble voice. He turned around not to see him, “Youting, try to let it go.”

Sheng Youting shook his head, “I owe her and can’t let it go.”

Jing Shenxing really wanted to punch him to awaken him, “How would you pay her back? Are you going to act like this and finally force yourself to die? Sheng Youting, look at yourself, are you still the man loved by Lan? Would you really think she would satisfy to see you act like this?”

Sheng Youting immediately sat up straight upon Jing Shenxing’s words. Not a slight aura of decadence was seen from him now. He picked up the chopsticks again and pulled himself together, “No! I’m still the man loved by Lan. I’m still the man who would be thought highly of by her. I don’t owe her much. I just need to love her for the next 11 years. I will love her like what she has done for me. I used to the best man in her eyes. If I’ve done something wrong, it must be the others’ fault. I’m always the man with a shining aureole in her heart. No one is ever better than me. It won’t be long. I will love her the same way she loves me for 11 years...and then I would stop and continue my new life...”

Jing Shenxing had never thought that Sheng Youting should love Yu Lan based on his behaviors. However, he did feel the changes of Sheng Youting after Yu Lan was gone.

In the past, Jing Shenxing thought love was passionate and should be tested. Twists and turns would exist. However, viewed form Jing Shenxing’s experience, there did exist a kind of love which was embedded in the plain daily life. However, if the plain and even hidden love was deprived of at once, the person who was used to it would be so overwhelmed with grief that he would hardly wish to live.

However, Jing Shenxing still wanted to pull Sheng Youting out from his sad world. He had devised a traveling plan to let Sheng Youting travel the world with Yu Lan’s bone ash. Traveling would be a much better choice than changing Yu Yi into Yu Lan.

However, it didn’t work. Sheng Youting was unexpectedly determined to change Yu Yi into Yu Lan. No one could persuade him. He would even not allow Yu Yi to go out. He kept Yu Yi practicing Yu Lan’s way of talking and behaving every day.

He would get furious if Yu Yi would act a slightly different from Yu Lan. Yu Yi was so scared that she could hardly sleep and eat well every day.

It was November and snow gleamed white. Sheng Youting’s heart was frozen and it was too numb to beat..