A Billion Stars Can't Amount to You

Do you know what it means to give you my first love, first kiss, and first time – all my firsts?

Did you know I was willing to tell you everything because you made me feel safe for the first time in my life?

Did you know that I truly, truly, truly loved you? I loved you until now, when I learned that everything, everything, everything about us was fake, yet I still can’t help but love you still...

Han Zhifan, did you know?!

Did you know?!

Cheng Weiwan sobbed out loud.

It was still early, so there were a bunch of people passing by. The passerby would often look back at her, but not a single person stopped to check on her.

Cheng Weiwan didn’t know just how long she cried for, but she only stopped when she felt her mouth dry up.

She didn’t stand up but buried her head between her knees and cried silently.

Nearby, someone played a song.

“Never blame nor regret, walk until physically and mentally exhausted, love was a whole misunderstanding, pain is a type of practice.”

Cheng Weiwan raised her head from her knees slightly and listened attention to the lyrics.

“From comforting one another to being speechless, to endure or to retreat, they’re sad all the same.”

Cheng Weiwan was transfixed by a leaf in front of her feet until the song finished. Then she slowly pulled out her phone from her pocket.

She stared at the phone screen for a long time then unlocked it. She opened the text sent to her in the afternoon from Han Zhifan’s secretary but didn’t dare continue to read it. Instead, she swiftly tapped the keyboard and replied, “Okay, come to my house tomorrow. I’ll go with you to the doctor’s for a check up.”

Having sent the text message, Cheng Weiwan was about to put her phone away but she hesitated the second she locked the screen. Cheng Weiwan typed a few words then sent them off to Han Zhifan’s secretary: “Help me send him a message. I agree to abort the baby.”

–

Tonight, Han Zhifan was a little busy.

After work, it was already ten in the evening.

He waved his hand to signal the secretary to leave his office. The secretary’s phone got two notifications.

As the secretary walked out, she pulled her phone out. Not knowing who sent the text, when the secretary finished reading, she stopped walking. She stood with her back towards him for a while before turning around. “Mr. Han.”

Han Zhifan got up, grabbed his jacket and was just putting it on when he said, “What’s wrong?”

The secretary was silent for a while then said, “Miss Cheng sent a text message to say that I can pick her up tomorrow to go to the hospital for a check up.”

Han Zhifan suddenly stopped midway through putting his jacket on.

The room was silent for a good moment when the secretary added, “Miss Cheng told me to tell you that she’s agreeing to abort the baby.”

When Han Zhifan heard the secretary speak again, he snapped out of his daze. He let out an “oh” and continued to put on his jacket.

The secretary said goodbye and left.

Han Zhifan waited for the doors to shut then froze still like his pressure points were hit.

–

April first, April fool’s day. After Ji Yi and He Jichen had dinner, one continued to work at YC, while the other continued to film at the studio.

Just like the period leading up to the dinner, neither of them tried to keep in contact.

Ji Yi figured that the next time they met would be a chance encounter like that day, April first.

But things happened beyond her expectations. On April fifteenth, she got a call from Chen Bai, asking her to drop by the office the next day at eight in the morning.